A little while ago, I figured I've lost some inches, and could justify (I can justify ANYTHING!) purchasing a new set of workout clothes. I've sweated through the 2 I have, many times over now, and figured I was worth the little investment. I bought a new pair of capri pants and a top, both by Danskin. I washed them and put them in my bag for working out. I never tried them on. I repeat: I. NEVER. TRIED. THEM. ON.
I went to Shapes in Brandon this afternoon, and changed my clothes and that's when I saw myself. I never felt so uncomfortable in my LIFE! If I could have worked out in jeans I think I would have. Finally, I got a grip on myself. Then I went out of the dressing area and did my workout. You know how it is when you imagine that everyone is looking at you? Well, I don't think I imagined it! I thought I could hear gasps and whispering, and felt all eyes on me. Talk about being self-conscious! It didn't help that there's a ton of mirrors all over the gym so I could see myself again and again. And again.
On the way out after my workout, I made a point of letting the ladies at the front desk know that they would not be seeing that particular workout clothing until I had lost 50 pounds, and maybe not even then.
Put plastic wrap over the little lady on the right here, and that's pretty much what I looked like, except I have saddlebags on my hips.
EwwwwwwwwwwEEEEE!
Enjoy your day, and I hope you don't get nightmares from my word-pictures.
Pray for ME!
Be lifted up and encouraged this morning. I've been where you are. Matter of fact I still have some clothes that make me feel that way. So much that I haven't looked at them very often as they hang silently mocking me in my closet.
ReplyDeleteBut I encourage you to see past the mirror, to see past the "saddlebags", to look beyond the now, and to see what God sees.
God already sees you as that fit, in shape, DYNO-MITE person you want to become. Now you need to see you for who you are going to be (physically). The next time you look in the mirror, regardless of what clothes you are wearing don't believe the reflection but make the reflection believe YOU!
Underneath the skin (which will one day gross you out because it has become loose) and beyond the reflection, believe me, there is the person you first saw when you decided to make this journey!
Again, be encouraged and lifted up. God is with you, strengthens you, and will carry you when you struggle.
Very funny...I am there with you! Just keep working hard and dont give up! It will feel great when you can wear that outfit and feel great in it! Good luck!
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