Starting Weight: 242 lbs
Current Weight: 227 lbs
This week's results: -2 lbs
Total Results: -15 lbs
How could we measure weight loss success if there were no gravity? We'd have to find other ways of determining an appropriate level of "healthy". What did people do (or care?) before scales came into being? What was ancient society's definition of "beauty"? Which culture would I rather belong to, where my size and looks are considered beautiful NOW?
When I weighed in last week, I posted that I had an issue with the scale. I couldn't get a straight answer! I finally took one last step-up on the scale and used that number, but I was kind of dissatisfied with that this week. In the past, I have pretended otherwise, but I've placed a lot of emphasis on the number that pops up each week - I need to lose weight for my overall health, and the numbers don't matter... yeah, RIGHT. They're also my measuring stick for whether I'm a "good person" or a bad one, in my mind. I'm the "expert" when I do well, and I would do just as well to shut up when I don't do so well.
But I'm off my topic again... If there were no gravity, I could use a tape measure to see whether my body was tightening up. My Shapes volunteer personal trainer Michelle took my measurements when we started my program on July 13, and again on August 13. I don't remember specifics, but the numbers either stayed the same in some places, or were definitely down in others. Michelle has them recorded, and I'll probably chart them if I remember to get them from her one of these days.
If gravity were a thing of the past, no one else would have a weight, either, and then we'd have to just go by appearances - that would help out a lot! Maybe arms wouldn't sag, other parts wouldn't droop, and I would hope that feet wouldn't hurt any more - that'd be sweet. Hairspray would probably have to be stronger, though...
Other than tape measuring or standing on a scale (I'm back to the real world now), I've noticed my clothing getting looser as I get a little smaller. I'm ready to take the size 22 pants out of the closet and jettison them. I've taken them in at the waist as much as I can without having serious saggy-bottom, so they're on their way to the garage. No, I'm not going to keep any fat clothes, except for maybe one un-taken-in pair of size 22 pants for the drama of it all when I get to my goal weight.
Christ is my gravity... I look to Him to keep me grounded, and to avoid taking myself too seriously, or in taking all the credit for what I do, and for how I do it. Anything good that happens in my life, He should get the praise, not me. I had nothing to do with this.
When I called into The Joy FM and talked to Dave and Bill about auditioning for The Biggest Loser, I was just hoping to share what the Casting Director told me. I never expected the rest of this to happen, that's for sure! It was blessings on top of blessings when Michelle arranged a membership at Shapes and offered her personal training services.
Don'cha just HATE it when someone says about you, "Oh, (put your name here)? He/She has SUCH a great sense of HUMOR! He/She has such a GREAT PERSONALITY!" I could never get enough of that. The reason, I think, that I have even an average sense of humor or good personality is that I knew I'd never be able to fall back on my looks.
But, God doesn't see us that way. Jonny Diaz SO got it right when he wrote "More Beautiful You" - this is my favorite part, along with the chorus:
So turn around you’re not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It’s not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who’s strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you’ll see through the eyes of a little girl
There could never be a more beautiful you
Don’t buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you
Christ keeps our souls beautiful, no matter how many times we fail or mess up. Every day is brand new! The Holy Spirit keeps us believing, faithful, steadfast, and lifts us when we falter, stumble, and just flat give up on ourselves. Our Heavenly Father shores us up, even when we feel like we're drowning, and holds us in His hands, and tells us that we are beautiful, His own precious children; so precious that he sent His own Son to suffer for our sins and to die, and to rise again, FOR US. All we need to do is believe Him.
So get out there and believe The Good News!
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